notes to people growing into themselves [1]
may you find what you need ❤
I’m glad to hear that! It’s funny how those things work out. Maybe for the second one, rather than think about her, just keep coming back to accepting that while emotion and confrontation were once common business occurrences, they don’t have to be for you anymore. And you trust yourself to navigate them fairly and efficiently. Maybe keep reaching for even more compassion through understanding. Usually, when someone acts like that, it comes from a place of trying to control which is just really fear from feeling unsafe. It’s not your job to fix that for them, only to demonstrate the safety you feel in saying what’s true for you and what you want.
I think there are a few parts to a relationship — who they are, how they treat you, how you grow/go together. Each is important. Sometimes we get caught up in one and the other pieces get ignored. Sometimes really cool people don’t make great partners. Sometimes really great partners aren’t interesting people. Sometimes great relationships don't have the treat/cherish me thing to them. It’s really a personal preference thing. What’s important to you? Are you happy with each category? If not, and you’ve looked at what you can honestly own responsibility for, then it seems like conversations to understand the other person’s point of view are called for. And depending on those, work to close gaps or to close shop.
If you can, maybe get outside into nature and look at colors and patterns and textures. See if you can feel into your center by merging with the world around you. Kind of like no mind. Your mind will have lots to say, but most (maybe all) is noise you won’t be able to do much with. See if you can let it tire itself out without taking its bait.
It might be helpful to call to mind another thing you took on that had a similar learning curve. Sometimes just knowing a roller coaster is a roller coaster or a curve is a curve is enough to lessen the intensity of the experience. And possibly make it kind of fun.
Do the moves, trust the magic. You can bench your mind. Yes, of course this is a lot. Remember when you had the scaries before you left the last place you lived? You’re right on the cusp of a step into the unknown and survival brain is kicking in, but you know you’ve got it. Let yourself find evidence that reminds you how capable (and lovely) you are and how natural this growth is. It won’t feel like a huge leap, just a next natural step.
You may or may not continue to have a screen that plays episodes of Judgement in your mind (<- this adds a shape and form to that experience that you might be able to use), but I’m pretty sure how you interact with that info change.
Continuing to develop the ability to ‘feel’ the texture of internal information (is this Lack (fear) or Possibility (love) based) might make space for you to use what you see on the Judgement show more creatively or with greater humor.
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